I'm not in a crisis atm, but there's a high possibility I might be. My dog is already really sick, and now she has a new problem. If my dog dies it will kill me. I lost another dog 2 years ago and barely survived that.

My T made me promise to call her in an emergency and to wait for her to respond before doing anything. But if my dog dies, I don't want to keep my promise. I know how she'll respond.

Part of me feels super guilty if I break my promise. My word means a lot to me. But another part of me knows that I will probably break my promise in this situation. I don't know what to do. Do I tell my T? I know I'm worrying before anything has happened, but I only got 2 days warning when my last dog passed away.

But then I still don't even want to tell her now. I don't want her to know I don't plan on keeping my promise. But then I'm breaking my other promise of being open and honest with her.

I wish I hated my T. I wish I didn't make any promises. I don't know what to do

I know the advice will be "tell your T". I have said that enough to others too. So I don't know what I want from writing this.