thank you for your honesty, I wish I would've never told him that, but at the time, I didn't think I did, I thought I wanted something more,, not someone but something. Its hard to explain. Hes not a very emotional kind of guy, hes always got his guard up and gets defensive very easily. And when I told him that I was moving out, and didn't love him, we were laying in bed, and out of nowhere I started crying and told him.
I just felt like I needed a change,, in my life ,, in myself. just a whole different me. But now that I realize the only me I want is the one that he loves, it almost feels to late sometimes. Like hes given up. and i feel like I need to do something before its completley done ya know?