I understand those last two paragraphs, thats for sure. I suppose everyone here would refer to your post as venting. But I can't help but see the truth in it. Most other people do seem happy to me. I don't feel a heavy fatigue at the moment instead I kind of just exist. And it isn't much more than that. I don't have a single friend outside the online world. All I can offer is that if you feel miserable then perhaps it will be of some comfort to know I am with you.