Yeah... I feel like my mind plays tricks on me. I know what you are saying is true but my mind still says Im fine now.

The ODs...gah. They happened within a week of each other, last May. The first one was super impulsive and I ended up in a psych hospital for a few days. At that time I also had a BPD dx, given to me from a a psych hospital pdoc. I *knew* I didn't have BPD but who listens to us huh? Well I got the super mean/rude pdoc at the hospital. I knew him from the other hospital's location.... he was never very kind while I was there so I was very guarded. He said he couldn't do anything for me there and out of all his training and education he knew the only thing that could help me is DBT. Ok...DTBT is great and I believe it is good for everyone, not just BPD. But, guess what! I *don't* have BPD! Ive worked with my pdoc for many months and shes officially removed it! So, no one can tell me they don't treat people different based on dx. I had it because I can be impulsive, Im female, 20s, hx of self-harm, hx of abuse, moodswings.... yeah.

The second, the next week...I planned it. I researched the drug. It was a tricylic antidepressant. No good. That night was scary and NO fun...or the 5 days following.

I wasn't trying to be funny. I wrote it quickly on my way to a concert. I talk nonstop to everyone and Im alone house/pet sitting so theres no one to talk to!