I think theres a triumph in finding things to be grateful for Jean.. particularly when tempted to fall into despair at life or when things seem stacked up against you.

Sorry you're feeling scared and worried about the future. Yep, I suppose we all get scared at times. I try to just deal with the issues of the day when i'm feeling particularly dark or worried. Chewing over what might happen in the future especially when your mood is likely to put a negative spin on everything is just torturous.. though we are all prone to do that for some insane reason. Bringing the mind back home to the now is probably the best (secular) advice i've ever been given. Are you able to do that?