wow...this would just make me think too hard...lol.......I always resented this stuff about finding my pain because I never KNEW what was wrong with me. I searched and search and searched for so many years for answers and for healing and for meaning. but it seems I found my purpose before I found my pain. or actually they were intertwined all along. because I always gravitated toward helping others. I hated seeing others hurt. I hated conflict. I ended up becoming a social worker specifically to work with families with custody issues. this had nothing to do with my life but it closely involved me in the mental health arena and gave me the connections for when I had my breakdown. I suffered much abuse as a child and I am finally dealing with the impact of that now. my line of work, helps prevent kids from being hurt.