I think that one of the things that leaves me uncertain about Current-T is this... I don't know... this feeling that his judgement/perception might not be that good?

For example.... I was discussing previous Ts, because there's alot of hurtful stuff there for me. I mentioned a T that I saw once, but didn't return to and he said.... that it seems to be a pattern of mine to just cut people off.

I'm thinking about that now, and I don't think it's accurate. I've discussed 5 Ts with him.

- 2 - I left after one visit, because they were bad fits for me
- 1 - I stayed with for a year as things got worse (going 2x/week!) until the T kicked me out!
- 1 - I stayed with for 3 sessions, and then she kicked me out. I would have continued, had I not been kicked out!
- 1 - I stayed with for THREE YEARS while making no progress. She was kind and wanted to help, and I finally left after 3 years because I was having some other medical problems that needed my attention.

On top of that, everything I've read says you really need to find a T you click with, and should try out several Ts.

I guess his comment just made me feel judged and bad for not sticking with the initial therapist. But initial therapist really did not feel like a good match in any way for me. It wasn't even a "pros vs. cons" thing - there were no pros, and I couldn't get out of there fast enough!

Is this how therapy is going to always be?