I really really really really really really really really really really really want to cut right now... i'm shaking because i really need to. i don't have anything near me that i can cut with at the moment and if i do cut it'll look highly unprofessional cuz i have a promotional meeting on monday and if the managers see it i might not get the deal. i tried the rubber band method and it's just not doing it for me. i just cant feel the pain with the rubber band method even though my wrist is super red and have the elastic band marks. what should i do? im freaking out! :'(