I'll tell you who does that type of thing, I do and so does anyone who has a binge eating disorder. I know what it's like to feel sick, be in pain from being so bloated with food and just waiting for the sedative effects of the food to knock me into a food coma. And I hated myself so badly when I did that. But no matter what, I know we are not bad people. I believe we just have a really challenging, dangerous disorder. (That's all! ) I hope you feel less sick soon. I was reading today on the difference that self compassion might make. I'm going to try to rethink how I might treat myself differently the next time I abuse food.