I'm not sure what you need to hear but it appears you are on the right track by talking to the people (adults) that should not draw you into trouble. However there must be some students who think as you do and it would be great if you could find one or two that could become friends. The adults you talk to now will not likely be available to you when you leave school but 1 or 2 close friends might be.

It is highly commendable that you wish to change your life and I wish I had thought the same way when I was still in school.