Dear Thinking Out Loud -- Please find someone to talk with. Pretending everything is all right is not working for you, according to what you yourself have posted here.

Hugging him to pretend everything is all right does not sound like a course of action for you, especially as it perpetuates the inappropriate touching. Please find a rape crisis line.

Rape and Incest National Hotline

Adolescent and Adult Surivors of Sexual Trauma

Boys & Girls Town:Call with any problem 24/7 every day of the year