We can't all be sweet all the time. There has to be a balance. Plus I know I have rage inside me that is murderous / violent. I don't always want to be touched. Il used to be called Monster. I got given the name Lily now. I realized i'm only 9. Maybe sometimes a mix of ages,but I carry rage from being 9. I never got enough to eat. So I eat. I didn't get color books or posters or new underwear for years so I get those. I don't like to be touched. I want to be alone. Other people are like dangerous aliens to me.I want to smash every thing. Burn down the houses where evil took place and then salt the earth.