So, I haven’t posted here for quite some time … I have been doing good the past couple of years (for me) … but lately, I have been depressed and just need to vent.

I am living very far from home. I only have a couple of friends here, and that is hard. I almost never go out … I live in a big city and just don’t feel comfortable yet. I spend most of my time reading and studying.

But I slowly feel myself sinking into a deep despair … I feel fat, ugly, and old. I have tried to diet but it’s just making me cranky. I sit in my room and ruminate for long periods; I just can’t snap out of this.