Many/most ppl with CSA history recover and are able to live happily/healthily (at least I hope so).
I have (had?) cPTSD too and yes OBGYN was extremely difficult for me but still I learned to overcome it and go to my yearly visits as needed. I don't like it but what woman does, right?
It is not very pleasant experience afterall... But I refuse my past to define/hinder me anymore and will fight for every chance at normalcy I can get.
Growli, if you are suffering from pains you really should go. Yes, it's stressful (esp the first few times) but it comes with being a woman. Finding a nice, female doc might help. Plus it's extra sweet of your LC to offer to go with you as an emotional support.