Hello ((((((((((DREAMRUNNER))))))))))
I am very sorry you are feeling conflicted about your decision to tell your therapist about your SI. It sounds as if your therapist wants to make the best out of your therapies by scheduling you so soon after you told him about the SI. You are very HEROIC in wanting the help you deserve for yourself and the feelings that you are having at this time, that you are having a hard time expressing. I hope you can get the help you need now that your therapist is more aware of your problems and the needs you have at this time. Take care. Soidhonia