Get professional help. You are a danger to your self right now. There is help out there. Go to the ER. You are a uniqe, irreplaceable person, and do not deprive the world of the wonderful presence of YOU! If it is meds you need, then take them. Take some supplements also, vit D, Bs and maybe some iron. And drink water, or whatever beverage you prefer. Stay hydrated. Helps me when I crash . It is hard to eat properly, and a body deprived of nutrients and water will make matters far worse.