I know it's long but bear with me...

cousin: U say your sensitive... But you are only sensitive to your own self.. There is no sensitivity wen you just get angry on impulse... What happens to the sensitivity. U say u me to treat u the same as i wud my child...What if I wanted u to treat me the same as you treat your mom

cousin: You treat a perform according to their actions and their developmental stages and their temperament. You love them but u can't treat everybody the same, because no two people are the same. U respect your mom enuff not to curse her or tell her u hate her, but u have no respect for me but then u want me to treat u a certain way and jus forget all of what h have said n done to me

cousin: Now... I know u can say, but you've said and done things to me... I was never mean or obnoxious wen saying anything to you... I may have told u things that h cud not handle and you accused me of being mean and hurtful, but I told u the truth. You say ugly mean and cruel things to me that u say or not true u just say it out of anger. U must mean it. U just tell me u dont so ill keep talking to u cause u dont have anything else to do

me: I am not manipulative nor am I pathetic. Expressing myself doesn't make me pathetic. I have been reassured that I am not weak and I'm not a coward.

me: Why couldn't you tell me "the truth" in a less vicious way? And besides, those things you said were OPINIONS.

me: You make me feel bad about myself. I wish I'd die. You tear me down. You never lift me up. You've shattered what little of a self esteem I had left.

me: I just want you to see the way you hurt me sometimes! Why do I always have to get hurt!? Nobody likes me! I can never have a good relationship with anyone! I've always been nice to people now I'm mean and cruel! I'm pathetic both ways! Nobody cares about how I cry myself to sleep. No one cares about all of the pain that I feel. No one wants to be around me or give me a hug. I just want someone to feel what I feel!!!

me: I feel inadequate as a human being. I don't match up to people. Everyone is better than me and more lovable. I have no place in life. I'm a defected person.

me: I want someone to care about my tears.

cousin: Why do u continue to say that no one loves u. U said u have been told that u are not a coward, that u are not weak. Do those people not love you. I never said you were a coward... I told u that acting that way makes u a coward and not being able to Face people is coward... So that u wudnt b that way.

me: Those were people on the internet who do not know me.

cousin: "You make me feel bad about myself. I wish I'd die. You tear me down. You never lift me up. You've shattered what little of a self esteem I had left." U see that statement right there is why I rather not talk to u... U had no self esteem wen I met u... If anything you self esteem wax build up while u were down here. But u choose to blame someone else like I did that to u. How u gon leg someone glad year u down anyway... What does that say about u from the start. U blame me for your issues. U were u wen I met u. U didnt live yourself and I always told. Nice things about yourself to help u find something to

me: But how do you explain me feeling worse after talking to you?

me: Help u love yourself...I rather not be blamed for what ever happened to u. U dont kno what happened to u so u find comfort in using me to blame to give u some sort of comfort to say yeah you did this to me... Oh No!

cousin: So how u gon believe something on the Internet from some people who don't kno u!!!!

me: I said everything that happened.

me: I keep telling you I'm not blaming you! Why can't you swallow the fact that you've said some things that you shouldn't have said?

cousin: Why don't u just understand... I never said anything that I shudnt have said... I said some things that u did not like and u cud not handle and did not want to accept.

me: You do not call someone with a shattered self esteem pathetic or weak or tell them to grow some balls. Being honest does not give you the right to be cruel. You KNOW I need some help.

me: I have also told you things that were "the truth". Then you say I'm being disrespectful or I'm twisting it or you get real defensive. If you can' take it, don't dish it.

cousin: If u don't want to be called that you wud not have been that way. U did not care about being pathetic when u sent me 337 text messages. Now u know that was ridiculous and everyone of them says the same thing

cousin: Really. Only things I'm talking about us u blaming me for issues you've had for years and expecting me to treat u a certain way wen you are disrespectful. U cursed me. U slammed my doors. U always say u hate me. Do I do that to you, really! I call u on your actions.

cousin: Yes, I get defensive wen you blaming me for something I didn't do..u just want me to not be able to handle stuff that u say. Most of it has no barren on me. I didn't say it was a good thing not to have no emotion from it, but I don't. Why do I want someone else to feel like u feel.. U dont like the way it feel so why wud u be selfish and want someone else to hurt. If I'm hurting, I don't want that pain inflicted on anybody, not even my enemies

me: I don't want someone else to hurt. I want someone to SEE

me: How can anyone help me if they don't fully understand. A person can be perfectly happy and healthy and still understand me.