I do and I don't take them anymore, my body is too sensitive for medications and I always gotten the rare sometimes nearly deadly side effects medically from like abilify, geodon, lithium, lomectal, I can't remember the others between anti depressants and antipsychotics made me sick all the time. I stopped taking them, it's easier without them.

Yes and no, yes, because I had many many tests and no one knows what I have. So far I have stiff mans syndrome. I'm getting physical therapy soon for it. No, because recently, I'm able to get my license, but it's taking much longer than it should.

yeah I'm aware it's been recently relapsed, from the lack of connections, communication, and people I'm around. I only see the people at work now and no one else. I'm home all the time, no one can hang out with me anymore. I moved too far from them, and my life is consistent of being isolated from everyone. Like my therapist says no matter how hard I try to make something happen they end up doing really ****** things and disappointing me and not being like a friend at all. I don't know, because I've been in all kinds of groups and I didn't like any of them, because over time they are just the same like the others. I'm not shy either, I just get so anxious and angry when someone wants to get to know me, because I don't believe them. This has happened so many times, they lost any credibility that they'll do something different. They always leave, whether, it's life they have to move, made better friends, have a gf bf, or they never liked me to begin with and used me for their time to be spent around people. It's like when I'm upset I'm always being told by these people I should feel guilty even my mom does a lot out of ignorance. I can't even feel like a person or have feelings.
It's like everyday life, is like a cage I'm trying to get out of. I'm not even giving up, I can't find an exit, and all I want to do when I get what I need, I am going to shut everyone out. I'm deleting my fb making a new one, and cutting everyone out from where I live now after I move to another state or city whatever.

I'm going to do that today with music.