Why did you take down your original Post?????

I'm going to be blunt ... only out of concern for you and your family, I'm not being mean.

I've know you over 2 years and I have see you in all sorts of moods.

You are always fooling with your meds, taking them wrong , not taking them, taking more than you should.. etc ... Doing so is not going to find stability .. Do you want stability ??

You said your hubby is suicidal right now, your off the rails too by what you have been posting.. Who is caring for Miguel?

I know you fear IP , but if your at risk of harming yourself or others you need to take responsibility for yourself and do what is safe for you and your loved ones.

IP is not some crazed looney bin that is going to force meds down your throat its not like that, you have a say in your treatment, it's a safe place to get the help you need...

You and your hubby could both benefit from an IP stay.

I hope you find help , I really do