Thank you for your replies!

I am so emotional right now. I am lying in bed crying first thing in the morning. This has been getting more intense and will continue.

The first thing I mentioned going into therapy with her is I don't want to get so attached that I cannot function. I get attached quick - but I think for me it is required in order to build a solid trust. I miss her so much. I hate this because I can intellectualize how it seems to her - and to me - but my emotions override it all and I'm just lost in it all. Somehow my logic goes out the window because I truly need that support she can offer.

I just had a thought come up. That I will always be alone and that my friends are not really my friends... I don't know what to think about it all - but it hurts so much... My brother manipulated and stole all my friends when I was younger - and one of these friends is back in town and now all this stuff is happening... I wish I could share more. It's long and layered story.

Thanks,