(((dancinglady)))

I can understand what you're saying. I'm far from being a spring chicken myself, and I have been fighting mental illness for all of my life. I was hospitalized as a teenager (30 years ago), and treatment was a lot different back then. I've definitely seen some scary stuff!

That said, I wasn't diagnosed with BPD until 4 years ago...I think? Instead, it was everything else. Major depression, Panic Disorder, PTSD, Victim of Sexual Abuse, Dissociative Disorder NOS. I also finally got diagnosed with Epilepsy, just before 26 y.o. and doctors overlooked a few of my emotional disorders for 15 years, assuming that all of my problems stemmed from my E!! It has been very difficult to be fighting my physical and emotional past ~ my ex-hub and my parents simply believe that I am wrong. I misinterpreted this or that; I wasn't ever really a victim, I'm imagining things; and so on. It drives me bananas!!

Anyway, the gist is: regardless of when we are diagnosed, and treatment begins, stupid stuff happens. It's all so complicated for us, due to varying reasons of our BPD. Most of us aren't struggling with just BPD either, but we also fight other mental and physical illnesses. It just sucks...whether we're young or old timers. That is my opinion.

Gentle hugs sent your way.