I can deeply appreciate a post of genuine contrition from an internet troll, on a psychology board to boot. I am so torn by your "anguish," that my bottom lip is trembling. Yet at the same time, I also experience another sensation about this "cry for help" which I can also appreciate, since I also suffer from the illness of having to amuse myself. I am happy to hear that you are suddenly experiencing guilt, shame, empathy and remorse after a decade of trolling. Usually cyberpaths do not experience feelings like this (or any feelings, for that matter), which makes you very, very, very unique.

Allow me to pass you a cyber tissue so you can let it all out. It's okay to cry.