I don't have PTSD, but I've dealt with trauma before. I thought about my mom. She's been dead for 15 years but it still emotionally hurts. I don't miss her or want her back, frankly I would have probably been at odd with her through my teen years (I was 6 when she died). But I found her... felt her cold body and heard the EMTs. I was there for the whole thing.
Odd thing is I find this all sad, not because I found her dead, but a small child found their mom dead. I'm not sad because it happened to me, it's like I'm detached from it.
I'm not doing ok right now... This is a lot for me...