Please go inpatient. Your husband may very well not have anyone to help him through his rough patch if you continue on the road you're on. I just got out of a psych ward myself (my first hospitalization) and I believe I am alive today because I did go IP. There they can watch you and titrate your meds in a safe environment.....in fact, that's the best reason of all to go in, you are completely safe and cannot harm yourself.

I do understand about not wanting to leave your spouse.....my husband has cancer and I hated to leave him home alone for all those nights, but he got through it. I think yours will do fine knowing that you are protected.