Part of this is because I don't want to leave my husband alone, but part of it is because I think I end up in the hospital way too often and have done so since I was fourteen. It's like I use it as an escape. I mean I'm not even going to say how many times I've been inpatient. I don't want to go back yet again, especially after just getting out two weeks ago.
But at the same time I don't want to continue on like this.
I do understand what you're all saying and you're probably right, I should just bite the bullet and take care of myself before I do something I'm going to regret.
I'll have to see what my ECT doc says tomorrow. She tried to get me to go in on Friday.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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