I read what you said about the comfort of bed and I feel the same. It could only be better for me if my bed were surrounded, closely, by 3 walls. If I could get my bed in my closet. I feel like my T is utterly clueless to my pain and if he is as good as I thought he was he should know this.

The other thing that caught my attention was your desire for a hug. I am the same but here's what is screwed up... When I do get one I am usually so shocked and feeling awkward that I can't enjoy it for what it is and that is comfort. Instead, I walk away feeling unreal.