MusingLizzy - thanks, that was very interesting to read. I'm still not sure if I actually do that, at least in that way. I just don't know. I definitely disconnect and hide out from people sometimes, for my own sanity! - but it's not like I'm cutting them out of my life forever. I don't know.

I'm glad you have stuck with your T though, and that you guys click! I guess that I don't feel like I *click* with my T, but I do feel like there's something different about him (from my other Ts) that could be helpful. But I'm not 100% sure.

ThisWayOut - thanks. It's always hard and scary!!! But, yeah, I'm grateful that this T has been good about listening to my feedback. Previous Ts were not so good at this!

RisingTemp - Oh wow, I'm so sorry you went through that. And thanks for the reality check and reminder...

Mastodon - Thanks... yeah, I'm not sure if he understands me (yet). But it also goes a tiny bit beyond that, I think. I worry sometimes about comments he's made... things about how everybody stretches their experiences on their resume (which I know, but when he says it, it sounds like he's encouraging me to just throw reality out the window almost - yikes - and this has come up randomly twice), and something about how lots of people do lots of drugs in high school and college and turn out just fine (I haven't done any, it was a weird tangent, I don't really think I agree with where he was going with that one). Ugh. I don't know.

Missbella - thanks! I like your interpretation so much better! I'm not sure that I accurately remembered/captured how he phrased it, but it seemed so weird... since I'm pretty sure I had also, just in that session, told him about the bad T that I spent a year with and the other T who kicked me out after 3 sessions. I guess it feels weird b/c I feel like my history is filled with alot more people who left me, rather than vice versa - so I can't figure out how he got there mentally...

And, I don't expect psychic powers, really, I don't. But it worries me when T seems to consistently put the pieces together wrong. It means he's not getting me, or understanding what I'm telling him

thanks.... everyone... sorry i'm beat... long day trying to fix my home computer and get some other stuff done, i'm just exhausted and going to go crash... i think trying to think about therapy for this week (Tue) is kind of exhausting me too.

thanks...