The problem is I HATE my body even though I have lost some weight because of a gastric bypass. I didn't want to have it even though I hated being as fat as I was. I lost about 99 lbs at the most and have started gaining some back, which makes my mom madder because since I am handicapped I still live at home. My legs don't move, my arms barely move and at times my heart beats way too fast. My nerves are shot, I feel like an oddball because I am the only person in my immediate family who doesn't need corrective lenses but in about 5 years I'll probably like my eyes because that's about how long my eye doctor said it might be before I'll need them. I'm not healthy by far, I had to have bags on both sides of my body because my bowels and bladder don't work how they were designed to because I can't control them. I take more pills than I have ever had to have and still don't feel like I have the right ones or the combination that would make me feel better. I have a disability, and I've had over 100 surgeries in my life and I'm only 35. So basically I feel like something the cat dragged in, pooped, peed and puked on, then spit out.