Crying on the inside and peacelily..... I don't normally have issues with abandonment.. but about 3 months ago, she said she wasn't sure she was the right one to see me... that she didn't think I was making the progress I needed to. I told her it took me a long time to trust her... we finally started making progress.... we actually worked on one significant trauma.. I did what she asked, I did my homework, I told her how I felt.. .then we had to take a break... I told her how traumatic a series of flashbacks I had were.. and that I had thought about running off into a tree.... but I wouldnt' do it... it was just a thought... I have my son to live for, even if he is grown, it would devastate him, so just because I thought it.. I didn't do it.... well now that I am in the place in the workbook were I am suppose to find someone I trust to talk to about this... and I emailed her and asked if I could trust her... she over analyzed the email.. all I wanted to know is before I told my story (like the workbook said).. I needed to know that I could trust her not to get me halfway through the work and then give up on me.... what I went through, like most here is why I am a mess... getting shot just triggered a whole lot of stuff that was there... and It was life threatening, I almost lost my life, I lost part of my hearing and now my eyesight is being threatened... I am frightened and scared and I finally thought I found someone I could trust to get me through it... I was wrong... just plain wrong.