Hi,

I just had an adhd assessment. I have not received results yet, but the man said I have really advanced "metacognition" and working memory. I don't know what that means, but would it not mean that I do not have an attention disorder?

I am in my 30s and have had problems with procrastination and taking a million years to do everything, uneven moods, anxiety, inability to study, interrupting, being "random," digressing, insomnia, falling asleep after drinking coffee (weird, I know), being unable to focus, etc. I also am nearly incapable of making a decision between anything. There are just so many variables!

I also have felt extremely bored and lonely while socializing, so I like to avoid doing it. And I am very maladjusted to change. And was born really early.

A lot of people in my family have attention disorders and addictions , etc, but they all have poor impulse control and do not think ahead.

I've rarely done an impulsive thing in my life. I deliberate every choice. I need routine and control or I feel mentally foggy and all over the place.

Does anyone know what this all is? I just want to figure it out and be different so I don't have to feel this way anymore. I want to be able to connect to people like a normal person and not feel like I am watching life happen through a second story window.

Thanks for reading, and responding, if you have time.