My name is Bee,I'm new here ..I dont know if im in the right forum ,,but I need help..I moved across the united states to be with a man who promised me the world.when I came here it was just me at first..my boyfriend lives with his parents and I slept on their couch for 6 months..my three kids came to live here and so I moved across the street from my b/f and moved in with his aunt..she had a grandson who was a problem and started talking bad about me ,my kids and my b/f so me and the kids moved from there..we then moved in a basement that belonged to my b/f's cousin ,,was told we could stay there as long as we needed to..10 days later was asked to leave ..we then moved to a motel,just me and the kids..it was so bad there,,I hated it! I went to a local agency and asked for help ..2 months later the kids and I moved to an apartment and I hate it too...it is so roudy here and the kids that live here are so mean..I dont know anybody here as I left my friends and family,I dont know who to talk too..my b/f is building a home just behind his parents home...I dont know if it is the right thing for me to stay ..He doesnt stay with me and the kids even though he knows I am scared to death where I live..He is still living with his parents and I'm just confused..his mom and I had an argument and just recently started talking again and of course b/f did nothing to help the situation..my ? is ..should I wait to see what happens or should I make plans to go back home? I have panick attacks and they are getting worse as time goes on..I really love my b/f but I feel that he's not in the relationship unless things go his way..the kids and I have sacraficed everything for him and he has done nothing ..He would have built house whether we were here or not..one more thing,,,,if I get upset because Im alone and unhappy he gets upset and claims he has headache and wont come over to see us.He tells me " Im afraid of everything and paranoid.'''' It's so hard to explain all this and have you understand everything...please give me some advice or tell me what you think....thanks for letting me vent ,,I feel alittle better allready..your friend ,Bee