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Old Nov 10, 2014, 04:50 AM
Kildesortering Kildesortering is offline
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Originally Posted by Emptinesswithin View Post
You, me, others. We learned how to be the way we are from someone else, someone who was mean, cruel, abusive, controlling, while we were young. We learned it from people who learned it from people. The people we learned it from were once innocent children. I would definitely put children in the innocent category. I was a rotten, cruel child myself, a child you wouldn't characterize as innocent. But I know where I learned it from; it is not a mystery to me.

I absolutely cannot currently relate to your ambition to hurt anyone who annoys you just because you can. I did kill some things when I was a child (under 10) and sent some people to the hospital; two cases were personal, the others were just to see what it would feel like, and I did not take any pleasure in hurting or killing things that did not do something to me to make me extremely angry. It was a learning lesson for me. Revenge felt good but unwarranted violence did not produce a pleasure for me. Picking on weak, defenseless, or innocent people does not give me any thrill.

I do not understand how it could be thrilling to anyone. For me, danger is thrilling. Challenge is thrilling. Revenge is thrilling. But I cannot get any of these things from women, children, or even men who are civilized and not aggressive. I could never understand rapists, child molestors, women-beaters, or male bullies, or male serial killers who kill women and children. Just don't get it. Are you in this category? Or are you just emotionally sadistic to other people?

I would come up with a definition of innocent, and run it past people here. Get some other opinions. If you think nobody is innocent, your definition of innocent is very narrow.
If it's very thrilling, it won't be real afterwards. I'll kind of dissociate. I don't know why, it just happens, and it's extremely annoying. If I hurt weak people, it will feel good, and it will be real. Then again, I only hurt people older than me, except some of my friends might be a few months younger than me. And I'm female, if that matters.

I'm not in that category because they all break the law. Even the bully. Okay, fine, I was a bully in elementary school, but I stopped because people saw it. I wanted people to think of me as that nice girl who could never hurt anyone. They don't anymore, but I still don't break the laws, at least not the big ones.

I like to both physically and emotionally hurt people. When it's physical, it's not so bad, I don't put them in the hospital or anything because that would be very obvious. When it's emotional, it's worse, because I can make them hurt themselves. That's what I like the most, when people hurt themselves because of me. I don't know what category that is.

I'll think about it. I'll come up with some definition later.

Thank you.