Yep, what can I say? SI seems to be linked predominantly with adolescents and teenagers. I am a mature age cutter and that just seems wrong, doesn't it? I think it's my age that makes it seem so ridiculous because it is such "immature" behaviour. It's unbelievable to think that the mind remembers and defaults to these things despite the years. Must be all those old neural pathways getting activated again. I'm going to stay in therapy, even though there is often a huge pull away from it. I have an appointment tomorrow and am going to have to confess to this. Hoping I can cross the bridge of fear and shame to do that though. Thanks for making me feel not so alone in this.