I'm sorry to hear you are suffering. I gave up cutting years ago but still have thoughts about it now when my emotions get out of control.

I'm not sure I ever realized that I gave myself permission to cut, it was just a thought of I HAVE to escape these feelings, whatever they were.

I wanted to comment on your signature picture. That is so true. People really don't want a true answer, so we lie to make them comfortable.

I hope you find your answers.