The reason you're scared is because it's still an unknown - we know what should happen in certain situations, we have our expectations and plans...but it's still not 100% certain hence the fear that something, anything, could go wrong.

I would advise preparing anyway, it's a good tool for combating anxiety. Have some fun dates scheduled in ready, plan new walks for your dogs, get them some new treats so that they start associating this new period with fun and excitement. Redecorate, clear stuff out, start actually making this YOUR home now. Not a place full of old memories which in all likelihood is also contributing to the fear - when you're unsure about how things will proceed, the last thing you need is to be confronted with nothing but signs of a failed marriage.

Go on Pinterest and look up crafting ideas - i love this because accessories and decorating can be very very expensive but they have lots of ways of making beautiful things for your home that cost barely anything and will help keep you busy. We're also coming up to the holiday period and regardless of whether you'll be in company or alone it's still a good time to do plenty of things for yourself. See it as like a celebration of the end of a difficult year and the beginnings of something better. Really indulge the idea - go Christmas crazy if you have too. Now is the time to make it all about you - if anything you'll be distracting yourself from any current issues and creating better memories to help cap off the year.

If you're going to launch into things - do it with the very best of intentions. My favourite expression is that we're not failures for having failed; only if we haven't tried.

All the best to you.