not in a sexual way...it's just that I don't get any kind of physical affection, ever. there is no one in my life to give it to me. I keep having dreams that I'm being cuddled or held, and in the dreams I always feel warm and love, and then I always wake up cold and alone... it's really starting to hurt me. I don't have any friends or any special someone in my life, there's basically no one to get any kind of affection from, and I am severely starved of it. so tired of hugging pillows and blankets and pretending they're people. the simple fact is that I am alone. Im getting desperate, not like give hugs to random strangers desperate, but getting there. It's close to the biggest thing on my mind these past few days. I cannot take much more.