You guys, it's never felt this bad before. It first came on last Wednesday I just want to sit in my running car in the garage...my try and think of positive things, my family especially my son but then it makes me more depressed that he isn't enough for me to not even have these feelings.

I haven't had a change of Meds recently so it's not that. I haven't self medicated since Last wed (alcohol or pot) hoping that would help, and not, still there. That stupid thought. That life is poinless, meaningless. It takes all I have to make it through the day. This is horrible.