Getting help won't change who you are, you're not fully living when your anxiety holds you back like that. Therapy would be a good option, it's very helpful for anxiety disorders.
-Take care,
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type