((hugz))

So sorry you had to go through all that!!

I've written you a longer response, but it got gobbled up.

Can you watch a video and tap on your acupuncture meridians points and say things?

You can change the wording somewhat or omit anything that doesn't 'feel right'...
Even if you don't believe it, just say it (as long as it's positive and constructive)
EFT has been really helpful for PTSD - please try it! At least experiment?
You tap along these points:

Longer version of EFT is shown here: (I find it more helpful with the humming and counting)

I wish you could do it with an EFT therapist, as it is, can you try it yourself?