Sorry to hear you're struggling so much emotionally. I've been there. I felt the same way about the hoarding show. I thought, then it would be done! But I also could not handle being on camera all the time. Plus, I definitely don't want to expose myself to everyone I know. I was so unhappy for a long time. Now I'm trying to dig my way out, & I keep reminding myself that it's not nearly as bad as I think it is. It was really hard to change my attitude about my house, but I felt so much better once I did. It doesn't feel inescapable now.

About the papers: See if your town/city has a "shredding day" where you can turn in a bunch of old paperwork to be shredded. Then you don't really have to do it yourself, & it's gone. I myself have a LOT of paperwork that needs to be shredded. It's just piled up, also very dusty. I don't even have an excuse for that. We own a shredder, & I have access to a shredder at work, & we even have a shredding company come in & pick up our shredding stuff! It's ridiculous that it's still in my house.