Thanks everyone for the nice words and encouragement. I do believe i at least have bp II or possibly rapid cycling. My mania does seem to come and go quicker than everyone elses, but the depression likes to hold tighter.

For the last decade or so, my family joked that my father was bipolar. He did have an incident in which he was placed on a 72 hour hold. Was never given any type of meds (that im aware of) and released. When i took an interest in psychology did i realize that the bp joke held a lot of truth.. Then i saw it in myself.