One of the more difficult parts of being borderline for me is the black and white thinking. I believe it is what causes most people to view us as histrionic or even as manipulating liars. A person or situation tends to be either all bad or all good. It is hard for me to see the perverbial grey in the matter. So when someone upsets us he becomes the worst person on the face of the earth and we hate him. When things settle down, or more then likely, when we become afraid that person is going to hate us back and leave us we can become sickening sweat and try to make things up. Consistancy is not our strong point. There is the added benefit that when we are in one emotional state we have difficulties remembering that we have ever been in another emotional state. If we are angry at a person we have ALWAYS been angry and the other person has ALWAYS been mean. But once the fire settles down we tend to totally forget about having been angry...until we become angry again. I say "we" but always remember that not everyone with BPD shows the same traits to the same degree so some may not have this problem at all or at least to a much lesser degree. I think the black and white thinking AND the poor ability to remember past emotions is the major contributor to my self injury.
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying