I went to session today and my t was asking about memories that my little one has. She ask me if I wanted to say more. I suddenly felt like I needed to run into the corner cover myself and scream. Just scream really loud over and over. One of my others didn't want her to do that. Something like "that is not how to behave". I told this to my t, she explained that that might be a memory of what I did or wanted to do. And that we might be re-traumatized if we acted out the memory. I could feel my brain turn inside out. I was trying to understand that to be a memory and not a part. I have had that thought in therapy before but always understood it to be a part. And was concerned that i could stand up a do that at anytime during session. Thinking of this as a memory makes sense. If my memories were not stored away in the time they happened, than they may just be floating around in my head, jumping out when something jars the memory. I truly wanted to get up out of my chair and scream, run into a corner and cover myself. It is exactly what I FELT. But it might be a memory of something I felt when I was three. A memory that is not set in time. This thinking makes some of us feel better. Like we are a little lighter today.