I have been overweight since age 18 when I started taking antidepressants. For 40 years I never tried to lose weight. Two years ago I decided to seriously lose weight. Over 18 months I slowly lost 40 pounds on South Beach diet. I was so proud of my success and back into regular women sizes from plus sizes.

I had hand surgery in March and surgeon started me on Meloxicam to cut down inflammation and scarring. I have had hypertension and on antihypertensive for 30+ years. My surgeon apparently didn't know that Meloxicam should never be given to someone with hypertension. Meloxicam is known to cause rapid weight gain, dangerously high blood pressure, heart attack, stroke and even death when given to someone with hypertension and/or on blood pressure meds.

I suddenly gained 20 pounds in just two weeks. My blood pressure went up to 220/160 while on my normal meds. I had chest pain on exertion. Saw my doctor who added another hypertension med and referred me to cardiologist. And told me to stop Meloxicam immediately. I had a positive cardiac stress test followed by heart cath/angiography. I didn't need a stent but do have 20% closure of two arteries.

My weight stabilized and my blood pressure finally returned to normal after adding a 3rd blood pressure med. By then I had regained 30 of the 40 pounds I worked so hard to lose previous two years.

I am so depressed about starting weight loss over again. I am finding it very hard to stay motivated. I am disabled from bipolar disorder so stay home a lot doing nothing. I used to have a lot of hobbies and activities I enjoyed. I have no interest in doing anything but watching TV or Internet stuff. I find myself constantly going to kitchen to get something to eat. I eat all day long and the evening I eat until I am so full my stomach hurts. I never purge so unfortunately I am gaining weight again. I am back to my weight two years ago. None of my clothes fit anymore and I got rid out all my plus size clothes.

I really don't know how to get started again on weight loss. I buy only healthy food but then drive to buy ice cream, cookies, candy bars in the evening. Or go to fast food even though I am already full.

Any advice on how to stop overeating and back on weight loss diet would be appreciated.