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Originally Posted by Oliveaux
Hi everyone,
i'm not really sure what to say here. My best friend died by suicide just over a year ago. She was meant to be staying with me on the weekend but i got a text from her saying that she couldn't get a ride down (i'd just moved 3 hours away). I replied that it was fine and next weekend was better for me anyway, and she was dead within the hour.
I can't stop blaming myself, thinking if i'd just called her she'd still be here. She was such a good friend to me and she deserved better. I am so shy and reclusive but she was always there to pull me out of my problems and help me feel better. I miss her every day and I don't know what to do.
I've started seeing a counselor since I also have complex PTSD and substance abuse problems but under the care plan i have, all we can do is run through ACT (Acceptance and commitment therapy) which doesn't really allow for dealing with specific problems like this.
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I am so sorry to hear this. My husband committed suicide last December. It is a hurt like no other. You will go through blame, guilt, and yes even anger. And that is all ok! I will switch From guilt to angry to sadness in a day. I'm glad you're seeing a counselor and also look for survivors of suicide groups in your area. Sometimes it's good to sit with others who know what you're going through. Suicide is tricky because people don't know what to say to you. It's still looked at as "taboo" and there are people out there that say its a cowards way out. It is not! My thoughts are with you
