TW : Dysphoria, coming-out, anxiety, talking about identity, kinda cissexist language (english is not my first language, I try my best).

Hi everyone!

I identify myself as being genderfluid/non-binary. I do not wish to undergo any hormonal medication or treatments.

That's kinda part of the problem because I don't feel i'm going to get taken seriously as genderfluid/non-binary. First off because my first language is french and I almost never speak english outside of Internet. For those who are not familiar with french grammar, french is an excessively gender binary language. Every adjective, pronouns, nouns have a gender. It's nearly impossible to be gender neutral while talking french.

Also, I do not wish to change my highly feminine first name because I really grew an attachement about my first name and i'm not confortable with taken this away.

I also want to be a professor and i'm SO scared. Can I just present as male or female in class and not have to explain it? How do you even come out as genderfluid/non-binary? .__.

I'm just so scared because I feel ''fake''. I feel like I would not be taken seriously at all. The only real modification I do when I present as male is chest binding, no ''feminine'' makeup and I try to hide my hair in a hat (works pretty well actually ^^).
I do not wish to make hormonal treatments because I wish I was assigned male as birth and had the possibility to be a fertile non-binary with ''male'' genitalia. The fact that I won't be fertile is totally a turn-off of having ''male'' genitalia. Plus, I kind of have an attachement about how sex feels like with ''female'' genitalia. So yeah. :/

What can I do? Can I still be considered genderfluid/non-binary without changing my name?
Coming-out tips? How is it working for you in the work place?

Note that I do not wish to ever come out to my parents. They just won't understand and I do not wish their support because I won't get it.

I also prefer gender neutral pronouns in english thank you. <3