I feel that my depression is coming back. Normally at this time of year it goes away. Because I get depression from the early spring to about October. I guess I have to accept that depression is going to happen to me year round now.

Work was very slow for me today. I have Tuesday off because of Veteran's Day. So a lot of people didn't show up for work today. I feel very depressed now because the sun sets early. I have not been working out with the weights for a couple of months now (I've been doing that for years) because I got hurt with arm and back pains. The pains are getting better now, but I will have minor surgery next week. So I had decided to put off working out with the weights because I will have that surgery pretty soon and then I would have to quit working out for a while after that. What had got me through the last couple of months with not working out was bike riding after work. Can't do that now with the sun setting earlier.

I have been waking up in the mornings with dread. I am just dreading the future because I don't see anything to look forward to. But there seems to be so much to dread. I've been having weird dreams lately.