YES!!I DO!

It's so terrible...like most of the time I feel like I'm going down a really dark and scary path were only bad things can happen and i become so cynical and scary and make the strangest threats and go on these weird tangents and I'm just angry at everyone and ANXIOUS that people are coming after me...everyone seems like a stranger to me...and nothing feels/looks/sounds familiar...and all I want to do is sleep

then I have these weird anxiety attacks like I'm having now...where I don't know how to feel, but I think it's mainly sugar/caffeine fueled...I don't know if I'm anxious or excited? but I started cleaning everything and making lists! It's crazy, but I like that I'm productive right now...it just kind of feels like something bad is going to happen and I'm anticipating it but keeping myself busy by cleaning...idunno...it's kinda like i feel really whimsical, child-like, playful, creative, and talkative...i'm still trying to figure out this "bipolar thing", as I'm not seeing a talk therapist, just my pdoc. I think this would be considered "hypo-manic"?

did I stray away from the topic again? oh dear D:

as for what helps........I can't suggest anything. My doctor won't prescribe me anything because I overdosed on valium in April. I guess keeping busy is helpful (cleaning, being around POSITIVE/uplifting people IN TOUCH WITH REALITY)...also since I joined this forum- A DAY AGO! I've felt a little more hopeful that I'm not the only person struggling with these "issues" makes me feel a little more human...maybe if you have pets, pet them and cuddle them (:

OH!!!And meditation! I've been doing massage now for nearly 5 years...and it's sorta like Tai Chi in a way...but It really does help make me feel grounded and "in the moment". But I suppose anything that needs your full undivided attention will help (: (probably not video games tho!) yoga, tennis, swimming, GET ACTIVE! (: