I find that I am constantly waking up at the 3 hour mark (two REM cycles) and then can't go back to sleep or end up waking every 1.5 hours after that. Reasons I have trouble falling back asleep are because 1) I get obsessive thoughts about my problems 2) I feel scared or nervous 3) I get chest pains and breathing problems 4) I feel lonely and can't go to bed without having talked to someone.

Given the hours I wake up, it's not reasonable for me to interrupt my working friends in the middle of the night. I usually message my international friends since it is their lunch time or something.

I feel like a little kid, needing someone to soothe or calm me down to go back to sleep. I can't ask for that from my family since we are on bad terms right now. And I was forced to break up with the one soul who would stay up with me when I couldn't sleep...

I wish there was a way for me to tackle my anxiety. Sleeping at home does not help. I dread waking up. Sometimes I will fake still being asleep when my dad comes into my room to stare at me sleeping. I get really nervous and want him to leave.