alexandra, I am struck by how clear a vision you have of a path to healing for yourself. You have specific thoughts on what will and will not work. This is so far ahead of many clients in therapy. You need a T with the courage to allow the client to choose the path, accompany the client, and help along the way. Humanistic T's believe that contained within each person is the knowledge of how they can heal. Is your T up to allowing you input into the best path for you?

What does your T say when you share your ideas for how you can get better? Does he think they will not work and aren't worth the effort? Maybe the two of you could agree to try your ideas for a while and see if they are helpful. If not, alternative approaches could then be considered.